Man, breastfeeding really makes you sooo hungry. Waking up at 3am feeling starved while knowing you have to breastfeed soon isn’t cool - when you’re in the hospital that is. My only option is vending machine food. I had to settle for a bag of Famous Amos chocolate chip cookies which I normally love but are gross at 3am when you want something a little more substantial.
Why oh why didn’t I have Joe leave me some snacks?
Also…hello post-baby hormone rush. I have cried a few times so far. Not because of depression or anything, but for weird things.
Reason #1: Joe leaving me at the hospital to go sleep at home the first day I was here. I delivered at 5am so both of us had been up ALL day/night and never went to bed. I didn’t want him to sleep at the hospital because he looked more exhausted than I had ever seen him and I wanted at least one of us to get great rest for the next day. Plus he had to go into work for a few hours in the AM. No point in him waking up every 2 hours with me. After he left I boo-hoo’d in bed for a little while, and again a few hours later.
Reason #2: Breastfeeding woes. It’s really heartbreaking to have an adorable newborn in your arms sobbing sadly and rooting feverishly to show she is hungry, and not being able to get her to latch on correctly and feed her. It’s so frustrating! After many times of doing it half way, wrong, or failing, I had a mini-breakdown and shed some tears. Luckily my nurse and husband were awesome and helped me through it.
Reason #3: Missing Ava! At night they keep her in the nursery and then bring her to you every few hours when she needs to be fed. This is nice because it lets you get a little bit of rest. I have a private room directly next to the nursery so sometimes I can hear the babies crying. It made me sad because I thought maybe Ava was crying! I got up and walked over to peer into the large nursery window. There in the corner was Ava all cozy in her metal/plastic rolling crib with the pink crocheted blanket my mom made her draped at the bottom. sleeping like an angel. It made me start crying because I really missed her (aaaaand I’m crying again).